Late last night, mid-project, I found myself sitting on a
brick path up the side of a mountain in Ecuador, and I experienced a
life-changing moment with the Lord. I
want to capture it, but I’m not sure I can find the words. I know exactly what happened. It’s been coming for a long time, but wow…
In a sense, I feel almost like I’ve been pregnant for a long
time, excited about what’s coming, but experiencing a few nauseating days here
and there, and mostly just waiting, making preparations for what’s ahead. In the last year or two, labor has
progressed, but recently it’s been more intense, like that phase right before a
baby comes that seems crazy and a bit out of control… I’ve been in transition for months, and I’ve
wanted to give up a few times. But now, finally,
I’m moving past it. Every trip I lead
feels like another push toward the final goal.
As I travel around leading teams, there’s something
different in me. I can take people
places with the Lord this year that I couldn’t last year. I can speak with authority, conviction and boldness,
and I can act on things I hear from God with a certainty that wasn’t there
before.
I’ve also learned that I really love coaching other leaders, pouring everything I have into them and watching them do better things than I could ever hope to do. I’m learning so much, and I want to improve our systems so that Kingdom can come faster and less hindered.
For months, the Lord has been showing me:
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The urgency of living as a daughter of the Light
because darkness is not dark to God. He
is making it into day, and He will not leave the task unfinished (Jn. 12:36,
Ps. 139:12, Is. 42:16)
·
That Christ is already formed in me and I must
not make anyone labor again toward
that end; I need to run in His commands as He enlarges my heart (Gal. 4:19, Ps.
119:32)
·
My need to walk in confidence because of who He
is in me
·
That it’s a season to RUN because He Himself is
running right now
So, I’m sitting on a mountain in Ecuador, starring at the
night sky and marveling at Jesus: all that He’s said and done this summer, the
truths He’s revealed, and the promises He’s made. I have six very specific words from Him, and five
of them attached to people I care deeply about.
I can’t even imagine how they’re going to come to pass, but I am ridiculously
confident that they will. So I think to
myself:
Who am I that I get to
be a part of all this? What does it look
like when I get home?
And that’s when I know…
The Lord has entrusted me with so much, but I need to
respond to Him. I need to stand up and
say yes. Come Spirit come, and fill me
in a way that I’ve never been filled before.
Come without measure. My answer
is yes. You are welcome here.
